Well, I’ve been pretty bad about journaling lately and
because I’m feeling a bit lazy I figured I’d kill two birds with one stone and
blog a bit about what’s going on at the moment.
It’s been our last week of our seminar classes so I had a
final on Monday and then today was my final for the cinema class so that’s
officially done which is nice. Both went extremely well! Cinema was fun today
though because we got to watch everyone’s final videos and they turned out
awesome! Some were hilarious. My best friend Grace’s was a meditation on “ennui”
(basically: apathy). Another was everyone dancing. Some people had lip-syncing.
And we got chocolate cake thanks to our teacher, Phillipe! I was just really
happy my video was very well received. Plus I had emailed my teacher a link to
my IP (short film I had to write, produce, direct, edit, and sound design for
the Intermediate Production class last semester) to get some feedback and he
was really impressed! So that was quite a confidence boost.
In other news… And probably MORE exciting news… there’s
officially 6 days until the Cannes Film Festival commences! I’m actually
starting working for my internship on Monday, however! So I’m nervous but very
excited about it.
A lot of mixed feelings actually. Excited to see Cannes
explode with people in the next two weeks. Apprehensive about Cannes exploding
with people. Nervous about getting around. Nervous about the internship itself,
but then, not really because the woman I’ve been emailing with seems fantastic
and I’m really excited about the company I’m working with (Myriad Pictures for
anyone who’s interested). Happy I don’t have to go to class for the next two
weeks while working. Sad that I also won’t get to be in class. Confused about
how to feel about the fact that I’ve been prepping for this for over a year now
and it’s finally here! But at the same time, it’s actually HERE. And once it’s
over I’ll have one last week of normal Cannes before we’re done…
Just writing that makes it start to hit me a bit.
And don’t get me wrong, I miss home. I miss everyone there.
And I think the closer it gets to the end combined with the fact that I know
these are the last few weeks makes me all the more homesick, and yet all the
more determined to soak up these last few weeks here in this beautiful place,
with the amazing people I’ve grown so close to in the last few months. (I may
or may not be tearing up a bit as I’m typing.)
Well… with that there is definitely a bit of stress. Now that
those finals are over it’s time to try to figure out the system of the
festival. A lot of us are very confused, perplexed, and/or overwhelmed. Most of
us don’t really know what’s expected of us. We have a ton of questions.
Supposedly we’ll have badges that get us in some places and not others. There’s
screenings but then there’s premieres which, if you’re dressed up for and wait
in a special line, you might be able to get into. But there’s also tickets
somewhere? And you can try to get invitations to things? From whom I don’t
know. And the amount of time I’ll actually have to go to screenings as I’m
working the festival is totally unknown to me. Plus we’re all volunteering at
this AMFAR gala that Robin Thicke is supposed to perform at. But I need a dress…
Or do I? Should I buy a bus pass or walk? Take a pack lunch from the college or try to make it back?
And I still have to plan out my last two weeks of independent
travel… I have decided, however, after going to Ireland last weekend (which was
INCREDIBLE!) that I want to go back. So… lots of stuff going on. Lots of
questions. Lots of things I want to do before I leave.
But, I can’t complain. And I hope it doesn’t come across
that way. Overwhelmed a bit. Sure. But I know and trust everything is going to
be fine. More than fine actually. It’s going to be incredible. And I’m probably
one of the luckiest people in the world.
I just find myself in a similar position to how I was before
coming to Cannes. On this weird precipice; on the verge of the unknown. That’s
maybe a bit poetic. But that’s what it is. It’s the unknown. And it’s fear. And
excitement. And all of these other crazy mixed up things, thoughts, emotions,
etc. that are making up my life these days and even here in this very moment.
But for now… it’s time for bed. We’ve got a big weekend
ahead to with an excursion to St. Marguerite, and island, tomorrow, and then
one of Europe’s biggest gorges on Saturday. (It apparently doesn’t compare to
the Grand Canyon, but it’s still supposed to be pretty cool!)
Bonne nuit tout
le monde. À la prochaine!
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